whitenoise

for old fans and new...I will be updating this thing over the holidays if I can find and scan all the work. My last deviation was like, 2005 i think...

"I love you. not like they told you love is, and I didn't know this either, but love don't make things nice, it ruins everything, it breaks your heart, it makes things a mess. we're not here to make things perfect. snowflakes are perfect. the stars are perfect. not us. we are here to ruin ourselves and break our hearts and love the wrong people and die. the storybooks are bullshit. now come upstairs and get in my bed."

I turn out these lights again And I'm blind here in the dark And I let the numbness win Taking over everything Letting go of things I love Replacing them with things I crave I've turned away from you I'm breaking off your wings. I'm falling so fast; I'm drifting away It felt good for a while, where the fuck did it go? I've fallen so far, I'm lost to the world How can I get back from here, don't think I know Wish I could have said something Wish I knew the words But now my voice is gone I've finally let you fade There's the smallest part inside Crying out for you to see Maybe save me from myself Don't really want to drift aw